Hot Chocolate with Peppermint Mocha!

So, it's been a bit. A number of things have happened. The biggest and most recent thing to happen was that my sciatica went out and landed me in the hospital for 3 days and I've been home for a week and I still have bruises on my arms and hands! In the ER the nurses had to stick me NINE DIFFERENT TIMES to be able to put in my IV and that's after they pulled out that special red light lamp that shows my veins. It was nice though, because I was getting a hefty dose of my pain meds straight into my veins and then also given another hefty dose orally. I was feeling pretty damn good! Though, I couldn't sleep, which sucked. I also remembered why I am not a big fan of the hospital I was at - I had to share a room, the tv/phone had a cost attached to them and things were just out of date. But the food was decent. Not as many choices as the other hospital I normally go to but still it's not like I starved! Fortunately my sciatica finally calmed back down and I'm able to sleep. Because it was hurting so badly, that sleep was not something I could do for the better part of two weeks. And now I have at home physical and occupational therapists coming. A bonus - I now have a pretty shiny and new shower chair! It's nice to finally be able to enjoy my showers and not have to rush and/or fear that I'll fall. This way, I can just sit and let the water hit me and actually enjoy myself. It's great that my insurance company fully paid for it too, because if I would have had to pay for it - I'd still be scared of falling in the shower...

In other news, I have developed a sort of routine for myself. Washing my face in the shower, using my, erhm, the liquid stuff you put on a cotton round and it removes ground in dirt?, lotion, my green makeup, brushing my teeth and using mouthwash, and my makeup even has a routine - I'm using a special eye under crayon to help with the circles, liquid foundation and even concealer! And at night - I use special wipes to remove all my makeup (mind y'all - I would normally just sleep in at night), then I use a facial creme and an under eye cream. And again - brushing my teeth and using the mouthwash. This is major because I'm normally a "brush-em-once-a-day" kinda girl. So between all of this and dropping 14.8lbs on Weight Watchers and FINALLY getting really decent numbers with my blood sugars - they used to always been in the 300-400's, but I've been getting them down to 90 to mid-200's! This is amazing because I've never had numbers like this in the past. It just goes to show that when I put an effort in - I can actually accomplish things and feel better.

Speaking of feeling better - I'm at it again with my whole family. And I'm sick and tired of it. My mother, for the FOURTH TIME, called fucking CPS on me! There is no level she won't aim for or anything she wouldn't do to try to hurt me. I honestly think she's trying to get me to lose custody of my son, and that way she can make a play for him. Granted - she'd have to get thru shithead - but I fear she doesn't see him being a problem. And it's NOT COOL! And now she's not talking to me because I apparently threw J under the bus with the whole investigation and she "needs a break from me". Case in point - the other day she invited EVERYONE BUT ME to come to the house and go to a pumpkin patch. Which is a bunch of bullshit. And I had posted something on facebook about how I'm pissed at them all and sick of their shit, when my one sister went off on me. It's bullshit! Apparently I'm the only one whose not allowed to have an opinion on anything and voice said opinion. But whatever, fuck them all and I just need to learn to stop caring about them, because clearly they don't care for me. 

On a brighter note - I ate some crow last week, asking the owner of a former salon I used to go to, if I could come back. I had a falling out with him and he banned me from the salon. And now he said I could come back. But what's interesting - apparently they're closing the salon I went to because my appointment that I have next week is at a TOTALLY DIFFERENT salon and when I drove past the other one - it was closed and dark! Apparently there's an interesting story behind this whole situation and I can't wait until next week! And my stylist, whom I adore, has found a new product that's a shampoo that does a really decent job of dyeing someone's hair to whatever color is in the bottle. And she agreed to buy me a bottle and only charge me her cost. So, I stopped by the new salon (since the old one was dark) to give her the money tonight. And the new place looks pretty damn cool/interesting! So it should be exciting! I'm just bummed to find out that the perm I got for my birthday, that I was so happy with - is what's causing me to lose chunks of my hair and making it so knotty. Hopefully this conditioning treatment she's going to do will help. I'm just pissed because according to my stylist and a WW member whose also a stylist - they both said that I never should have had gotten a perm, since my hair is so highlighted/bleached. And now I'm pissed at the stylist that did it. I'm just glad I get to go back to the stylist that I adore! Plus, I love the salon experience - all the hustle and bustle, gossiping and gatherings. Kinda understand why guys tend to congregate at barber shops!

Well, I think that I have made up for "lost time", and I have a mug of hot chocolate calling my name and a bottle of peppermint mocha creamer asking to be used! So until next time!

Love you